| So, I have some random thoughts today that I wanted to get out of my head and I thought, why not share with the rest of the world? Anyways, if you have any thoughts on my thoughts or any random thoughts please feel free to share them with me!
Wow, finding a church is tough. We really having been trying hard enough, but we are feeling a strong pull to an independent church in Ann Arbor. They give free dinner to homeless people before their Sunday service (which is in the evening, so you don't have to wake up early), which I think is cool and I would really like to help out with that. Brady doesn't seemed worried at all about finding a church, but he is the type of person that knows without a doubt that God has the situation under control. I know that God will take care of it, I am just impatient and I tend to be a control freak. I just really need a church because I really need a friend. It is so hard to make friends, even when you live within 50 feet of someone else's home. Yes, I said it, our house is only located about 50 feet from the houses on both sides of us. We don't have much room, but that is not a big deal because it is our house. Anyways, I am kind of making friends with the neighbors, but they are big partiers and obviously I am not really into that scene. I tried to fit in with people like that before, but that was totally wrong and I will never do it again. Back to the church situation, I really want to find a place where I can get involved and make some good christian friends. I know that we are supposed to have non christian friends also and I do kind of have that, but I just feel like I would have a lot more in common with christians.
Alright, so we have health insurance and a pretty good sized bank account and we own a house. Not everything is perfect though, everyone keeps asking us when we are going to reproduce. We both want to have a baby, its just that I don't think that we can. We are going to Florida in April and when we get back we plan on going to the doctor to see if we are ready for something like a baby. I really feel though that God would like us to take in a foster child, but I have felt that God wanted me to be a foster parent for a long time. I guess only God knows what will happen next in our lives as far as children go, so we will see. For now I am happy watching Zach at our house and playing with our neices and nephew.
I think I may have some lingering depression, so pray for my healing there, please. Sometimes I just cry for no reason and I feel like the walls are closing in. I am alone most of the time, so I just get sad at times and feel like I am a loser. I know though that I am not a loser, I am just a student that also happens to be a homemaker. I don't know though, it is hard to be a homemaker without any children, but I think that Zoey, our dog, Link, our cat, and Zach, the kid I babysit for, are a lot to handle without children around.
I praise God everyday for all of the blessings that he has given me. I have a wonderful husband, that I take for granted, a wonderful minivan, that I think has kind of made me look at my dad in a whole new light, a great house, it isn't much, but it has our names on the ownership line, two perfect pets, they stink, but they are lovey, and last but definately not least my relationship with Jesus Christ, I really take advantage of this, but it is what has given me all of the above.. |